oK I HAVE HAD IT WITH MY EX MOTHER IN LAW WHAT THE HELL IS SHE UP TOO ????

she tells me she's going to Quebec city, so I asked her if i gave her money if she could bring back clothes... (for both the kids of course, so i expect) she says yes i gave her a 150$ but than she comes back with 150$ worth of clothes for whom and only whom do you think...........drum rolls please ......... her Jordan darling what about Brandon isn't it him starting school in 3 weeks???? what i am gonna do now i don't have anymore money, that was all i had right now for the clothes i guess he'll start school with all his old clothes from last year it nopt biggy i guess but it still pisses me off that she didn't think of both of them....oh my god !!!!Changing subjet...Remember i've told you guys about a friend of mine(Stephanie not to mention her name) that has a comm(site) for people who have losted a special someone whether it be their child or friend, cousin,parent,g-parent or husband what ever....Well since i've been participating, i've been thinking alot about my parents these pass for weeks and i miss them like crazy even if i didn't get to know my mom she is still a part of me that i am missing and i asked my grand ma to get me some pics of my mom out if she can find some so i can post them on Stephanie's site....And i was wondering where everything of my dads went after hepassed away.... He had a hold bunch of movies of my mom and us when we were young in the yukon but where did they go to??? I guess i'll never know i am sure glad that i had at leat 2 thinks that belong to my mom her family ring and her wedding dress those are 2 things i'll never get rid of...I can just imagine my step mom with things that belong to my mom what would she done with that ???Sometime i wish i could go back in time and just for 2 minutes to convice my parents not to go back on that road with the car i wish i had my mom still(i miss having a mom to talk too just to let her know how i feel) but nothing would of been the same... would i have known my father like i did or would of it been better or would of my parents separated and than get remarried or not... lots go threw my mind everytime i get thinking of everything that could of been and my mind plays lots of scenarios what if this or that....?????Only god know and the devil won't tell!!!ON another note.....Brandon and Jordan are doing well .....I haven't been a good mother now a days i haven't been giving Brandon his ritalin and his other medication i just don't see the use and all the homework he was suppos to do he has done ome but men come on it's summer i know i don't feel like sitting down and to homework with him and he's allow to have summer vacation like everyone else i do some with im at lest twice a week althought and his medication i'll start it up again maybe next week it will get him use to it before he starts school again and it will get me back in to that routine again !!!!!Don't critic me i know..i'm not a good mom smack smack on my hands !!!!Anyhow other than that everything is going find, i bought all of Brandon's school supplies 50 $ can you believe it just for school articles and than i still have to pay for the inscription 45$ i still have 2 pairs of shoes to buy him and than the bus 240$ but that i can pay in october so not to bad and Manu (Brandon's dad) told me he was gonna help me out for that ..... he's not that bad after all but i wish he would be more interested in his son i can't figure out why he doesn't take him once in awhile in the winter time summer i understand he fishes that's his living but winter he doesn't do anything except little contracts here and there snow blowing...I hope this year he takes the kid for a week for christmas time to go see his grand pa and step grand ma !!!So I guess i've said pretty much what i had to say except love you, kiss you and take care of you all!!!!! Until next time.....